It has been so frustrating living here and being unable to make my home the way I want. Either because of financial or health or now pregnancy reasons. I want to paint. I dream of painting. At least one wall sheesh... But ofcourse we need to take the walls/(god awful ugly panelling) down and the dining room ceiling 1st and drywall everything. And I fear that won't ever happen. Because well honestly no one ever shows up to help. Always helping and never being helped. Its pathetic how ppl expect never to be told no, but then when it comes time to reciprocate... oh look imagine that... no...
There has been a total of 2 friends help since living here. They know who they are ;-)
Honestly my fat ass can't even decorate, because surprise surprise all my "help" is out helping someone else!!!!
So much to do and no so called friends or family have the decency to lend a hand.
I am so sick of ppl thinking they can use use use. And ofcourse because I actually speak up and start to stand up for my family and say NO... oh then ofcourse I'm a bitch!
I may be a prisoner of circumstance now, but I wont always be one.
